I am amazed at my
recovery so far after doing the 12 steps of coda with a psychologist and no
meetings due to no meetings in my area. I had one best friend who I was
primarily codependent on. Our friendship broke down . I realized I was Co and
joined coda. I suffered a lot yearning for his friendship and hating being
alone.
After the 4th step he came back into my life. I was armed with
coda awareness this time. I consciously kept my social circle wide and worked
on honest communication. Recently I walked away from him for a while due
to him causing me emotional pain . In the past I had stayed because I couldn't
live without him. It felt good to be alone and whole. I took my power back. I
had a social network on stand by ready to go. We r talking again. But I am so
much better now. Being alone without him and ok really demonstrated that.
A tip for those who can't go to meetings . To begin to work on your self
expression I learnt to find small safe areas to practice and u will gradually
move onto bigger things. Over the years your growth will astound you.
Keep it real
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