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Higher Power for me is simply Truth. I have long been wondering
what Higher Power means to me. I have feared that just leaving that to my inner
pondering would lead to something covertly letting me off the hook. My patterns
are deep and compulsive, influencing my thinking at least as much as my acting.
How can I trust, then, a Higher Power of my own (flawed) understanding.
Then I learned from a sacred book of a very foreign culture the
statement, “There is but one God over all and that God is Truth.” That solved
the problem for me. My Higher Power need not be my certain-to-be-self-serving
creation; my Higher Power is what is in front of my face and before my feet. It
is always present to me, demanding my attention and my humble compliance.
It is also inside of me: in the reality of my body and the
strengths as well as the limitations of my personality. It is also in those I
interact with as they really are, not as I wish them to be. My task, then, is
clear: to attend to all of this intently, humbly and gratefully. Doing so is
constant and intimate interaction with that power greater than myself of the
2nd Step.
I was pondering about this, half-asleep, early one morning. As
usual I had concerns about my life happenings. I have always derived, for some
reason, great comfort thinking of my utter incapacity to do what needed to be
done. And I have wondered, “Is that some sort of spiritual masochism I am
indulging in?” But no. Now I know it is opening my heart to the truth of my
limitations, and thereby communing with God.
Bernard - 11/25/20
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