Today I want to talk to you about something inspirational – finding your calling after everything that you’ve been through – and I’d love to share with you my personal story, with my heartfelt desire that it can help you.
Narcissistic abuse is an extreme situation of going through the depths of darkness, forcing us to harness and heal back to The Light. As this Light we can also help others, through our direct experiences, to find their Light as well. Not just from a textbook understanding, but from our own lived Soul experience.
Did We Go Through All Of This For Nothing?
Many years ago I remember being inspired by individuals who had been through absolute tragedy, who started living their life purpose as a result of it.
I personally met an incredible woman who had lost three children through separate events, who started an organisation for bereaved parents.
She was spiritual … incredible. I thought to myself, “How on earth could this woman go on after such trauma …. unspeakable trauma … not once but three times?” I asked her how she did this. With incredible love in her eyes and truth flowing outwards from her heart, she said, “I know my children are my angels. I know I’ve been with them many times and will be again and that I am eternally with them. This gives me comfort, and I want other parents who have gone through this to feel the same, and live their purpose of love for themselves and their surviving loved ones.”
I’ll never forget how this moment imprinted my psyche, as the ultimate “overcoming”. At this time I had no idea that my own “overcoming” was to come; not her unspeakable horror that every parent dreads, yet it was going to be the most significant battle of my life. And, it wasn’t until much later that I realised I also had at some Soul level been granted the opportunity to live out my true contribution, as a result of this trauma, on this planet as well.
At the time of writing this article I had my final lesson with my 10 week Thrive Bootcamp Members, where a member asked, “How do you find your life purpose?”
The conversation that unfolded in our Thrive Group was that usually our life purpose is not something that we logically choose – it chooses us. It chooses us through life circumstances, because we would NEVER logically choose it, and until these life events we would never be equipped for it either.
If we would logically choose it – we would have done so already!
So many people have the gut feeling and even heart burning mission of sharing, teaching and granting relief of a breakthrough awareness, product or a system that made a spectacular difference to their own lives. The thought of that lights up their hearts. It’s exciting, it feels right! They know they don’t want to just work for someone in a job that is unfulfilling to their Soul.
Yet – try telling that to the logical brain which has expectations, is fixated on outcomes and fears the “what if’s”!
Of course our programmed “mind” asks …
“How am I am going to make money from this?”
“What will other people think?”
“What if I can’t maintain my mortgage, bills, and lifestyle options?”
And …
“What will I need to give up in my life to make this happen?”
“What if I don’t want to make the sacrifice.”
“Do I even have the resources and ability to make this happen?”
“What if I fail?”
Then they fall back into what I believe are “uncomfortable comfort zones”. It all seems too hard, and not possible, so we can carry on doing what we have always done for a vocation, even though we feel like something is terribly missing.
Did we have our life-experiences for nothing? Were they just for ourselves?
I believe Source and our Soul has a greater plan for us than that!
How To Align With Your Source-Filled Vocation
I hope that by sharing my story I can inspire you to find your true vocation as well.
As a result of narcissistic abuse I materially lost almost everything – all that I had worked so hard for, for 40 years of my life. I also lost my colleagues, support from my family, including my son, all but one close friend, and then my health, my sanity and almost my life.
As a result of finally starting healing from the inside out, mental and physical conditions that the medical profession had told me were “unhealable”, I started to have a powerful urge to share the revelations that were helping me.
That was all it was at this point – a powerful urge.
I was still deeply in my recovery. I could not ignore it for even one day because I was clawing my way out of a complete psychotic and adrenal breakdown with inner energetic healing and radical loving self-partnering.
Logic was unimportant. What people thought was unimportant. Anything other than basic survival needs were unimportant. The only thing that was important was making sure I had basic needs met (many which I had to accept outside help for) and the healing and recovery of my own Soul.
Yet, there was this strong urge to write some articles and put them out over the net. I found doing this was also helping my own healing. It brought added purpose to what I was going through.
People started responded from all over the world. They had experienced my experience. They were open to looking at a different model of “inside out” resurrection, rather than the traditional “victim / no hope of recovery” model. That had been my intention, to share this different “way” to heal.
Then as I kept healing myself and studying energetic healing modalities, I started attracting people who needed to heal from abuse. I started sharing my healing protocols with them. This was also organic. One of my clients suggested I create a website for my healing from abuse, and put me in contact with a wonderful woman who had also been narcissistically abused.
I stayed open, receptive and learning in regard to my own healing, and information, synchronicity and miracles kept turning up. Things like financial prosperity and lifestyle were the last things on my mind. Saving my Soul and getting better was my highest focus, as well as sharing what I was learning with others – because I now knew that narcissistic abuse was an epidemic.
When I finally cracked the code to Quanta Freedom Healing for myself, because I so desperately wanted to be freed from a crippling agoraphobic condition, I knew I needed to introduce my clients to this healing method as well.
What happened next was something I could have never predicted – my healing clients exploded through word of mouth. I had psychologists, domestic abuse workers and other professionals contact me and ask me, “What happened to my client. They were stuck and traumatised and it’s like this is a different person?!”
I was also starting to be contacted by people overseas. I tried doing healings over Skype and discovered the process worked just as well. Before I knew it I was booked out months in advance with numerous clients every day.
Then the gut feeling came – there needs to be a Program where people can access Quanta Freedom Healing, because I can’t heal enough people one-on-one. I’d learned by now not to go into my mind and question things. I had always been inspired by what Louise Hay said when asked how Hay House came into being. She said, “I just opened the mail and answered the phone.”
I just showed up – I trusted what I was feeling and sensing. I had NO idea how to create a Program, put it together, or even if Quanta Freedom Healing would in recordings shift people’s subconscious programs. I was led. The right answers came, the “way” was shown and in amongst it all, all I ever had was a sense of the step just in front of me … nothing more.
I recorded a healing, just “knowing” how to visualise energy imprints into the healing – I let some of my clients use it to experiment and they had powerful shifting results. It actually turned out better for them. Rather than waiting to have a once a week healing with me, they could do numerous healings whenever they wished. They saved money and time with accelerated results and I was able to spread my energy out much further to many more people without depleting my energy the way I previously was.
I knew this Program – The Narcissistic Abuse Recovery Program (NARP) – which was helping people heal for real needed to go out to the world. What came next was one of the most inspiring, incredible and fulfilling times of my life – albeit arguable one of the most gruelling!
I needed resources and a global website and the back end and front end mechanics to get serious.
Yet how? I was barely computer literate. I had no business creation experience. I didn’t know how to set up an internet business!
I started an internet coaching course that was from the States, meaning I had to wake up at 4am each morning to participate. I was paying thousands of dollars for this Course, and also needed money for the business set up and structures. I kept healing clients 7 days a week to fund this, working through the night, usually 20 hour days and some days I was not even making it to bed.
In amongst all of this, I was writing ebooks, creating all the material myself, recording healings, and dedicated to my own internal healings daily, anytime a triggered trauma appeared in my emotional body.
I had NO idea where any of this was going. I had no attachment to any outcomes and I was just following my gut and doing things that I had never even considered doing before.
The rest is history … my global MTE business now has staff members in many parts of the world, my son is our incredible CEO, we have touched the lives of millions of people, we have over 500,000 subscribers from over 130 different countries, I’ve written a best-selling book and have helped tens of thousands of people become graduates into true Thriving in our incredible NARP Community. Medical and psychology groups, and famous relationship and personal development experts are now my colleagues! People I once admired from a distance!
None of this was planned. I didn’t do any of this to achieve these things. I just did what Louse Hay did, I just showed up. I followed my passion and I did not think in the ways that I used to before making my recovery from narcissistic abuse my highest mission.
My “mind” was out of the way. I was finally for the first time truly free to be “me” – because I followed my Soul.
I certainly wasn’t perfectly healed. I was merely following my Soul and Source.
The Shift To Source-Filled Vocation
As I shared with my beautiful Thriver Group last week, the following is necessary for you to create your true calling as the only vocation (and Life) that will truly gratify you.
Your life purpose can often be discovered in these following questions:
“What am I good at that can help others?”
“What is it that I have most needed to learn myself that I can help others overcome also?”
“What lights me up as something I would love to help others with?”
Absolutely, your Life Mission is contribution. It is service! And you must LET GO of all the mind reasons why it can’t happen!
Know that Source wants for you what your Soul wants for you – the BEST life possible and true flourishing for living your Life Purpose.
It’s YOU that is in the way of this – limiting beliefs connected to money, capacity and “issues” that won’t let it work.
Absolutely, hard work and sacrifice is needed. We need to live and put food on the table and keep a roof over our head – be prepared to have 2 jobs when transitioning into your Life Purpose. Please know TRUE passion is NOT like work – especially if you don’t get attached to having to get specific results straight away. The “payment” is the passion and inspiration that you receive from WHO you are “being” and then the energy to “do” becomes phenomenal.
If you are not prepared to give up TV watching, pastimes and other habits of time wasting other than working on yourself and showing up to act on your Soul urge, then your True Mission won’t happen. Are you waiting for it to drop in your lap? Are you waiting for someone else to give it to you?
Of course, it may not be your time to start creating your Life Vocation – you may be where I once was, just absolutely surviving and needing to focus on healing myself. It was when I did get some relief from trauma that space entered as inspiration, and I could finally hear the voice of Source.
It was different after narcissistic abuse and committing to healing from the inside out. My greatest mission was myself, letting go of trauma and filling myself with The Light where the trauma was. Being Soul-focused meant that I wasn’t in my head giving myself all the reasons, justifications or doubting and needing to “run this past others” like I may have done previously.
I just followed and the rest flowed and followed.
With a Source-Filled Life, Source is the way and the way appears
I hope today’s article can also grant you some beautiful and powerful key understandings that can help you do this too.
I’d love to hear from you below!
Does this resonate with you? Can you see now how you may be blocking your true mission and contribution on this planet? Do you have a sense of what it is that you would love to do as your life-expression? Does it feel possible (or maybe even exciting) for you now?
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