CoDA Weekly Reading

 

“Entering CoDA has made me aware”

After being in an eight year long relationship, where we broke up and returned four times, it came to an end. From the first breakup I knew I couldn't live without him, I just remembered the good. We tried it three more times, we were even going to get married, but again my deepest fear came back. I no longer trusted him. I couldn't look him in the eye anymore. However, when I was alone, I would forget that and I would want to return to this pointless relationship. Entering CoDA has made me aware of what I need vs what my mind thinks it needs.

After being in a relationship of 8 years, where 4 times we broke up and came back, it came to an end. From the first time it ended I knew that I could not live without him, I only remembered the good, we tried three more times, we were even going to get married, but again my deepest fear returned, I no longer trusted him, however when I am alone I remember it and I would like to return to this meaningless relationship. Entering CODA has made me aware of what I need vs. what my mind thinks it needs. I could no longer see him in the eyes the same.

Laura N. - 10/16/20