"Thank You, God, Now I Know”
My introduction to Coda came to me
via an assistant to my psychiatrist who really did understand my life and me
better than the doctor herself. Like most people during that time, it came
being given a book, dealing specifically with the characteristics of
codependency and through the assistance, and working with the doctor after a
hospital episode for depression. It was terribly painful reading certain parts
of the book and so I was advised that I should probably attended another
recovery program first and when I was ready, I could go to CoDA.
That was also a time in this other
program that if you breathe or mentioned the word ‘Codependent’ you got shot
down treated poor by some diehards. But I kept my peace because I was already
sold on CoDA, and could not wait until I could emotionally handle my CoDA
growth and recovery.
To my surprise, my preparedness
for CoDA came through my growth in a teen service and recovery program. This
particular recovery program dealt with the hurts of early childhood while
preparing me to read, the recommended book on Codependency with so much
anguish, but also with even more gratitude. It was "Thank you God now I
know what's wrong and what's right about me!”
For years I went to Coda reading
our big Blue Book but feeling so overwhelmed with all of our characteristics.
Recovery from codependency was just too much, this is how I felt for the
longest time. It was talking to another member (from a phone meeting) when I
told her I wanted to go through be the steps. She mentioned purchasing The Coda
12&12 Workbook and the small 12&12 booklet. I did and showed me how to
do it, and it made so much sense, and as we worked together my recovery soared
and I think hers did too. My recovery process may have taken years but I gave
God complete control over my recovery and my process, and am grateful. I
certainly won't question it. I’m Just grateful! However, I hope never do
consider myself recovered, because I feel I have a lot of living and loving to
do.
Thanks members of Codependent
Anonymous.
Gladys H. - Jan. 13th, 2021
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