An Opportunity
to Heal
I hear an
opening share at my local CoDA meeting about gratitude and my self-pity
bristles with antagonism like my dog bristles himself right out of the tub at
bath time. The good news is I realize that gratitude is the antidote for my
self-pity, and I don't have to stay here, stuck.
Sometimes I
am brimming over with joy and freedom, and I can identify that my HP will guide
me to look thoughtfully forward, towards my journey because it's going to be
better than I can imagine. Some days I am flat on my back and restless
"like hot water on a frying pan". However, some days all I can do is
confess to my HP that I missed the mark today.
The great
news is it won't last half as long or be half as intense as it used to be. Now
I have experiential learning that when I fall short, or have a bad day, or
things don't go my way (living life on life's terms) – I am encountering an
opportunity to heal in CoDA. I am also gaining an insight, to connect the dots
so that I can move forward in my HP’s plan.
In the event
of a restless day, I have tools to seek gratitude. Through the tougher times
and lessons that life can dish out, I lean into the idea that I don't have to
do this perfectly. (Thank you, HP for Step 10, "when we are
wrong..."), and I surrender to the idea that I get to reset and try again.
The slow
removal of fear, minute by minute.
Taran S.
01/07/2024
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