Thursday 13 August 2020

The Exquisite Pain (& Unmatched Pleasure) of the One who got Away.

 


Thank you. 

Thank you for loving me

As a pivot point on my life’s timeline, I view myself as “before” and “after” knowing you. 

Some people we connect with in our lives affect and change us in such a way that who we were before knowing them is a different person entirely. 

This is you

This is how important you have been to me—how much of an impact your life has had on me. I didn’t expect to fall in love so hard or to discover things about myself and life that I never knew. 

Thank you for believing in me so often when all I could do was doubt. Thank you for helping me reach and achieve goals that I had given up on—for reminding me that I deserve to do what makes me happy. 

Thank you for showing up for me. 

Thank you for the quiet moments with no words when all I needed was your arms around me to hold me—safe from all the bullshit and the noise and world that tries to destroy us and our peace. 

Thank you for telling me hard things and waking me up when I felt like I couldn’t go on. And for being my cheerleader and support when I felt like giving up

Thank you for playing with me, fantasizing with me, and singing with me—reminding me that life is made of every moment that we can never return to again. Thank you for teaching me that playfulness, laughter, and music keep our heavy hearts lighter. The sound of our voices singing at the top of our lungs will forever be etched into my memory as some of my happiest times with you. 

Thank you for the long car drives, the beautiful road trips, and airplane flights that took us to faraway places that filled our gypsy hearts with wonder, excitement, and adventure. I can’t think of any place I wouldn’t want to go with you. I want to leave our mark of love in every place on earth. 

Thank you for letting me lose my shit—for hearing and holding me in every moment. Thank you for not allowing the big emotions to scare you away. Instead, it caused you to lean in and hold me—to show up for me when I needed your support and reassurance. 

Thank you for bringing me more pleasure and ecstasy than any human should be allowed to experience and survive. Thank you for transmitting your heart and love through every touch; every magical, soul-f*cking kiss; and every mind-blowing transformative connection of our bodies. If I never love again, I have been so loved and f*cked so well. Time ceased to exist for us; an altered state of consciousness was the pinnacle of our connection. 

Thank you for opening your heart, your home, and your life to me in a way that has been terrifying for you. Thank you for allowing me a glimpse into the beautiful, dark, sensitive heart of yours. Thank you for giving me a front seat to the emotion and passion—the dedication and sacrifices of yourself that both rejuvenate and drain you—that drives your everyday life and decisions. Thank you for allowing me to witness your process, beautiful mind, and selfless, giving heart. 

No matter where we travel, whom we love, or where life sends us, you are forever etched into my DNA, my bones, and my very soul. Any other human being can never recreate the imprint your life has made on my mine. No one has ever brought me such exquisite pain, and such intense joy; every possible emotion has been experienced within our connection. 

For as long as I live, there will never be another you; I will never love anyone the way that I love you. 

Thank you for loving me. Thank you for being you. 

Stephanie Parry  |  5 Followers

AUTHOR: STEPHANIE PARRY

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