Experience, Strength, and
Hope
Here
I sit at the end of yet another romantic relationship ravaged by addiction and
all its tenant sufferings. The irony is after being in recovery for a decade, I
thought I had finally found a healthy person to fully partner with. As I've
just discovered, he too has untreated mental illness, untreated addiction and
pent up childhood abuse and trauma, like many of the men I've chosen all my
life. The most beautiful part of this most recent break up is I haven't lost
myself or my life. I've had to rebuild from nothing before, rebuild my sense of
self, my friendships, my self-esteem, and while the relationship may not have
worked out, the progress is I have more dignity and self-respect today than
ever, and I can walk away with grace from situations and people that do not
serve me.
I'm
grateful for CODA and for a long and slow recovery that has brought me to the
point of knowing sacrificing my safety and myself with the hopes of helping
someone else is my codependency talking. I am worthy of safe, stable love and
today, I can give that to myself.
Sara
D - 6/30/21 Long Beach, NY
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