Today I want to not just look at this Halloween Special article from a spiritual “good versus evil” perspective, but as I often do, I want to take it to a deeper Quantum level of reality.
Are narcissists really “dark”?
Does this make them “evil”?
Do they know what they are doing and what exactly is it that they are doing … and why the HELL do they do it?
Hell being the operative word, because when you are caught up in the darkness of a narcissist – it is like being in hell.
Okay let’s get started…
The Energy Current of Life
First of all, narcissists hate themselves.
Why is this the case? It’s because they feel powerless. They feel empty and cut off from the energy current of life.
There is an energy current – a base note of lifeforce – that permeates through everything in this reality we are living in. Some people call this Lifeforce, Oneness, Creation, The Divine Mind, The Universe… and many other names.
Those of you who are connected to this energy current – as many of you Thrivers are – know exactly what I mean. I’ve been connected to it for years, but before I was connected to it, I really had no idea what it was, apart from a few odd feelings of it.
Narcissists are completely separated from it – by choice.
To be a part of this powerful underlying system requires the desire to enter Unity Consciousness – an interconnection with all things.
At the base level of life, within the Quantum Wave function of energetic reality, everything is connected and therefore Oneness is very real. Unity Consciousness is the awakening to, and the raising of, one’s vibration to be a part of this system – consciously.
What are synonyms of Unity Consciousness? Self-truth, humility, empathy, openness, authenticity, co-operation, love, teamwork.
At a more complex level Unity Consciousness means, “if am truthful about me to myself, I can be real and open with you. if I celebrate and bless you, I also raise myself up. If I open up to incorporate your ideas and guidance, I then expand my own capacity and success. If I reach out and grant you a hand in times of need, I have just enriched myself. And if I hurt you, I have in effect just hurt myself – because at the deeper sub atomic level you and I are one.”
Unity consciousness means an awareness, synergy and respect for all systems of life, knowing that they are all interrelated and that to take from another is in effect taking from yourself.
It also means accepting the tougher stuff of life, such as when things seemingly go ‘wrong’.
“There is nothing in my experience that isn’t happening FOR me to allow my self-activation to become even MORE than it was previously, because the Field and I are having an interconnected relationship.”
Unity consciousness also knows that if you expand and prosper in honourable ways then you create greater abundance and flourishing of life for All.
Now you may be thinking this sounds wonderful.
In fact, the cells in your body may be tingling with the re-memberance (the coming back together) of the truth. But you may be thinking “How do I achieve this?”
I’ll address that later, but first of all let’s look at the narcissist’s darkness.
The Narcissist’s Darkness
It’s called Separation Consciousness.
The narcissist has dire feelings of internal powerlessness, because of having the experience of denying the Eternal Oneness of “I am an eternal, immortal spirit connected to All Of IT having a physical experience” – and so he or she comes up with strategies to try to feel powerful.
These are power-plays known as “I’m superior and therefore you must be inferior.”
The behaviours that are synonymous with Separation Consciousness are: dominance, manipulation, exploitation, objectifying, demeaning and destroying. All performed in order to try to feel powerful.
But it’s like taping sandwiches onto your body and thinking you’ve had lunch.
Ironically some narcissists try to get power spiritually. They may stand on pulpits, research and learn about spiritual powers and channelling and the like, but this never grants fearlessness, divine guidance, inner solidness and peace.
Spirituality is not sought by the narcissist to re-enter the Oneness, to be a part of the Divine Whole (All Of It). Rather it is done to try to be “a cut above”, to “have the upper hand” and experience “I win and you lose” from a lens of “me versus you”, “fear” and “lack”, all as a result of Separation Consciousness.
Narcissists in this delusion, scrambling for the goodies, tell themselves that they are more powerful than The Oneness – they believe the Oneness should bow down to and serve them! They demand that it does!
Of course, durably it doesn’t, because the narcissist is not in their heart centre in humility, self-honesty or awareness – the rite of passage to Oneness and a cooperative relationship with self, life and others. Even the Oneness is seen as being another instead of an interconnected aspect of self.
Hence why narcissists’ lives continually display upheaval, setbacks, disasters, and the inevitable ‘crash and burn’ – and the consequent need to recreate life somewhere else.
(Of course, this can happen to all of us in our breakdowns / breakthroughs – yet narcissists never learn from them!)
The narcissist’s insatiable desire to further themselves, regardless of the cost to others, is because their internal False Self is always at them; a relentless inner driver which always wants MORE stuff, money and acclaim in order to try to rid themselves of the powerless, empty, defective internal feeling they terminally have.
No matter what or who they get, the powerful feeling never lasts, it always dissolves back into the abyss, the Separation Consciousness of “I’m alone, not loved or supported and I don’t belong – yet I believe I HAVE to be the Supreme Ruler of All Of It!”
(Good luck with that…)
There is no way to impersonate the Oneness / Supreme Creator / Creation / Life-force itself. You can’t be “All That Is” in Separation Consciousness. You can only access this somatic knowing and beingness through Unity Consciousness.
The narcissist operating from the Small Mind, the Ego, believes they can somehow cheat, lie, manipulate, selfishly withhold and scheme, degrade and belittle and steal their way onto “the throne” of Supreme Beingness.
They can’t.
They will always come up empty, because of NOT being connected to the Oneness of All Of It. That’s their darkness. They hang on to their egoic identity – of being rich, sexy, formidable, this, that or the other – all the minute breakdowns of a delusional reality trying to get “worth”, rather than living in the Light of the only True Worth, which is …
“I am an eternal infinite spirit, a fractal of Creation itself, having a spiritual experience in a physical avatar. Knowing this means I embody and shine out the Light of Truth and Oneness for myself and others.”
If a plant is kept in the dark it wilts. An animal locked in a dark room goes mad, as would a person in solitary confinement without light. A person living in Separation Consciousness, trying to be fulfilled and filled by outer stuff and people, is experiencing the delusion of trying to get life rather than knowing how to Create Life WITH Life.
It’s painful, it hurts. It defies the nature of Lifeforce itself.
But a narcissist does not want to come into the Light. They wish to remain in the darkness.
Why?
Let’s examine this.
Unity Consciousness Starts Within
If we don’t go within, we go without.
People not integrating their Inner Being parts of darkness (shadows) and bringing them back into the Light, either don’t believe in or even want The Light of The Oneness. There are many people who are not narcissists, living extremely painfully in Separation Consciousness (I used to too).
This is the inferiority of “I don’t deserve The Oneness” as opposed to the superiority “I am the King / Queen Overlord”.
It’s Separation Consciousness that created the delusion – the belief that all things are separate and divided. That God / Creation / Source / Life-force is an outer force. That you don’t have access to the Divine Consciousness unless you beg and plead. Or that a Oneness doesn’t exist, and therefore life is a war raging – of those trying to be Gods against those who might bow down to them.
Every Human Being is deciding reality from their Inner Beingness. It’s not an outer force dictating it – because the Inner Universe is intrinsically connected to our Outer Universe.
For all of us, our internal narcissist (egoic mind) doesn’t want us to wake up to this game and put an end to the trying to fix and change “out there” to try to get a shift “in here”. The walking up to Unity Consciousness is this: “As the generative source of my experience, if I want to change my life there is only one place and one thing to change – my Inner Being – then everything changes.”
The narcissist’s internal narcissist, The False Self, is so powerfully entrenched that the narcissist will not admit there is something wrong, that anything needs healing within, or there is inner work that they need to do.
The ego defences are far too powerful.
In horrific ego injury, when the narcissist’s world may crash to terrible lows, there may be a tiny window where the personality defences are not operating and a narcissist may be humble enough to know they need to face their inner self. But as soon as narcissistic supply (any energy from “the outside”) is obtained again, it’s back to narcissistic business as usual…“I am the Supreme Being, it’s everyone else’s fault and there is nothing wrong with me.”
So there it is, the delusion – the Separation Consciousness, the utter refusal to understand, look at and come home to interconnectedness, Oneness and Unity.
Quanta Freedom Healing, in the Narcissistic Abuse Recovery Program (NARP), is the tool that allows this shift, one trauma, one false belief at a time to get out of Separation Consciousness and return to our natural organic state, our true essence, namely Unity Consciousness.
This return home is our OWN healing out of the traumas of Separation Consciousness and being ‘a match’ for narcissists. We were choosing them as our God / Source, rather than turning inwards to create True Source within ourselves.
People over the years have asked me time and time again, “Could NARP work on a narcissist?” Yes, absolutely it would IF they would do the inner work – but a narcissist will never do this.
People get confused by apparent “spiritual, aware” narcissists who seem to work on themselves. Do they actually face and release their inner trauma, or do they do the spiritual bypasses of covering it over? Are they cleaning out and healing their emotional gaping wounds, or are they putting band-aids over them that continually fall off?
Have they let go of their outer narcissistic supplies? Supplies are the people, drugs, alcohol, other addictions; buying thing to pump up their ego; crafting the perfect aesthetic image; or whatever else they do in the “getting” stakes to try to create an Inner Beingness – that cannot ever exist as a result of false substitutes.
Do they, when confronted about their behaviour, look honestly at themselves, be humble and take personal responsibility? Or do they continue to project, stonewall, make excuses and attack?
Narcissists refuse to meet their inner black hole, release the traumas, replace them with Source Light and return to Oneness. They just will not ever do it.
Are You Living In The Dark?
Some of you may be reading this and think ‘I’m in the dark too. This is how I am living.”
I know, I understand. I was too, as a result of trying to survive my unhealed internalised trauma – that clogged me up so much I couldn’t possibly feel Unity Consciousness, The Light.
And I questioned, like you may be too, “Am I dark? Am I a narcissist?’ I can be pretty sure like me, in trauma, on the battlefield with a narcissist that you have operated in ways that you are not proud of – but does that make you a narcissist?
There are two differences between us and a narcissist.
Number 1: You don’t naturally operate from a scheming place of, “What can I get?”, “People are mere objects to serve me, and if necessary I won’t hesitate to hurt and take from others to get ahead. “
I promise you that is the natural way a narcissist thinks. All … The … Time.
If you were that person, would you really be looking at my material? You’d be much more likely to be on someone else’s blog, reading an author who talks only about narcissists but doesn’t empower you to self-reflect and heal yourself.
And … 2) You are willing to turn inwards to find and release your trauma, fill those inner spaces with The Light, release the delusion and return to your true organic essence of Unity Consciousness – knowing yourself as a fractal of Source / Creation / Oneness / All That Is, having a physical experience in this avatar that is your body.
Narcissists will never do this. They stay separated in the dark and act like dark separated souls.
Lovely people may not turn inwards to heal either, and they also stay in the dark. A place where narcissistic, parasitical feeders dwell. They can thus become eternal victims to them and the darker aspects of life.
These lovely people may never rise above this.
And sadly, victims take hostages – they spread trauma, fear and pain to others.
Separation Consciousness is the curse of Darkness to overcome for everyone.
In Conclusion
I hope that this conversation has again helped you understand the deeper truth of what is really going on, here on this planet.
This is another third dimensional (Separation Consciousness / The Darkness) versus fifth dimensional (Unity Consciousness / The Light) conversation.
It is the difference between hell and heaven.
We all have a choice and the access point is within.
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