It
all started growing up with an alcoholic mother and a father who left when I
was 12 years old for another woman. I was left taking care of a mom who was
emotionally abusive and I basically raised myself. The pain of abandonment was
unbearable other times I just tried to survive. Eventually the alcohol took my
mother's life. I was 28 years old. It was just another abandonment in my life.
I felt that I could just not take any more pain.
Fast
forward to my adult life. I entered into a physically abusive relationship and
then eventually ended up marrying a emotionally unavailable man who ended up
leaving me for another woman after 20 years. It was this abandonment that
finally led me to realize I was a codependent and to CODA. I needed help so my
daughter would not end up like me. Recovery is a lifetime process and I am
committed to healing myself. I am now 50 years old and thank God and my higher
power for the strength to face my fears and begin my life again. I am strong, I
am capable of being loved and I will eventually find inner peace
Stacey
B - 2020
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