I
entered CoDA as a confirmed atheist. Yes, I read God in the CoDA literature.
The word is everywhere, and I read it without thought. At some point I felt
better, and I knew this program would work for me. A few weeks later I realized
CoDA is a God Program. I had a dilemma: renounce atheism which was an important
aspect of my intellectual bulwark or accept CoDA, God and all. The decision was
easy, I thought. CoDA was working; years of therapy did not work.
Everything
went smoothly; until Step Three. I worked Step Three for three years before
giving up my will and surrendering to God.
Twice
while working the Steps for that first time, I felt the presence of God. The
feelings are beyond my explanation. I wanted God with me all the time. I
prayed, meditated, and did whatever I thought of to recreate that experience.
Finally, I realized I had a Step One issue by trying to control God. I realized
I had to accept God as God is.
Thank
you, CoDA.
No comments:
Post a Comment