My Sixth Year Chip June 2021
This
past year has been challenging for everyone, including me. When the Covid
lockdown started, I was amazingly comfortable with the isolation and ignoring
my CoDA recovery work. Life was fine and I now had another free weeknight.
Then
a member of our group decided to head up an online meeting for our group and
reached out to several of us to assist in the process. I was enjoying the
online meetings, even with our smaller group and with the new people drifting
in and out. I could play games on my phone during the shares and even enjoy
snacks sometimes. Yes, I did contribute when I noticed I used my program
experience to handle a life situation. But I wasn’t growing or being challenged
by my higher power. I had made the decision to stop CoDA altogether when our
in-person meetings resumed, and the attendance picked up.
To
say the least, my commitment to our group had been less than stellar. But then
one newbie stuck with it. I saw her determination to work the program, but she
had no sponsor. So, with a nudge from God, I reached out to her to offer to be
a sponsor again. This one step to do service work to help another was a
disguise—it was a step to help myself. I have found a renewed commitment by
using the 30 Questions outline with my sponsee. This prompted a great review of
my answers from my first time working through the questions with my sponsor. I
noticed some good insight to my challenges then. I also realized my growth and
the areas still in need of work.
I
can say without a doubt that my CoDA program journey has had quite a few peaks
and valleys in the last 6 years. But there have been some great surprises and
realization of new hope in recovery through CoDA. Whether it be your first
month of your first year or my last month of my sixth year. God has blessed me
immensely over the years. I look with renewed expectations towards this next
year.
Joyce
M - 6/30/21
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