Dealing with Emotions
I
went to pick up a parcel only to realize that it would not fit in my packsack,
so I asked the clerk to keep it and I would come back. The gentleman in the
line behind me offered to drive me home with my big parcel if I could wait for
him to mail his. I was very surprised and happy because that would save me a
lot of trouble. I live very close. We talked and exchanged business cards since
we are both artists, and his field would be useful to mine. So far everything
was fine. But as soon as he left, my codependency kicked in badly. A nice man
being nice to me!!! Storytelling was quickly going on in my mind: I was to see
him again; go out with him; pursue a relationship…Stop! What was going on? I
called my sponsor and discussed it with her right away. I could not understand
the turmoil going on inside me, despite the fact I knew nothing about this man.
We
talked and it came up that as a child I missed love and kindness, so now when
someone is kind, I mix all the emotions in my head. I confuse the situations
because I would like so much to have more of the good feelings. After talking
and understanding where it came from, the turmoil disappeared. It was nice to
understand what had happened. I no longer think of the man, and if we need to
do business later, I will be at peace. Thanks CoDA.
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