A New Way of Living
I came into the
CoDA rooms in 2020 when a friend handed me the number for an online meeting.
Codependent? Who me? Sure, I'm totally independent! God loves us. Little did I
know. As I went to meetings and still do 6 years later, a few a week sometimes,
I got to find out about this disease that I definitely have. For 50 years I had
been the best human being to everyone I came in contact with. If you wanted me
inside out, no problem, upside down, no problem, go here, do that, absolutely
no problem. Not once considering Me, what I wanted!
From a
dysfunctional family of origin, to friendships, to marriage, I saw where I had
used many of the characteristics to get through my dysfunctional life. With the
tools of CoDA – to mention a few like reading the meditation book, praying,
journaling, and reaching out – thankfully I have broken the use of some of
those characteristics. With awareness I often catch myself before I use an old
way of thinking or behaving.
I have learned
that with my Higher Power’s help I can put myself first, that I am important
and I am enough. It was very hard at first, when I had lived my life putting
everyone and anyone first; with very low confidence I always put myself last,
at the bottom of the pile. I now thankfully have a new way of looking at life.
The inner peace that has replaced the turmoil that used to consume me is just
amazing. I always say, what CoDA has given me is just priceless and I will be
forever grateful to that friend for that number and to CoDA for giving me life
as I have never known it.
Marion
March 8, 2026
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