Weekly Reading

I didn't realize the reason I couldn't get out of bed anymore was due to years of an exhausting drive to control others so that I felt important. Eventually it wore me down to where I wasn't able to help anyone. This was my crossroad. Helping people is what gave me self-worth, now I was only left with a very depressed, very useless, me. Everyone kept telling me to take time for myself, to just focus on me, and honestly, it felt like a death sentence. I wasn't enough. I don't know how it happened, I just know I started working the steps, saying the prayers, and practicing detachment. Slowly I have become alive again and even more than that, I am learning how to live in peace. When I get anxious about someone else's life, I step back and say a step 3 prayer. I don't have to be in control anymore, and I believe that is why I can now get out of bed at 6 am to go to meetings and practice these principles in all my affairs.

Daffodil - 12/18/16