Choices
I
was in a marriage to a sick person with sexual abuse issues. A friend saw my
suffering and took me to my first 12-Step meeting. While I was learning,
growing, and working the Steps in CoDA I gained hope, knowledge, courage, and
realized I DO have choices.
I
remember hearing the readings at the beginning of a codependency meeting. I
felt embarrassed that they were expressing my deepest secrets out loud! My
shameful, debilitating, private feelings – yet the reading confirmed others
felt this way too! Others felt ignored, invisible, useless, trapped, alone,
hurt, betrayed. The reading confirmed they often did not know what they were
feeling because when they had expressed their feelings, they were told that is
NOT how they felt and told what NORMAL people would feel/think/do.
I
remember feeling, for the first time ever: I am NOT crazy! I am NOT alone! God
DOES hear my prayers! I can protect my children! I may be powerless, but I am
NOT hopeless!
Thank
you to EACH ONE who reads this. I believe my prayers transverse the universe
and are not bound by earthly "laws", that I can receive strength
through others – even from that quiet prayer, said in solitude, for all those
who still suffer.
Today,
I can be Precious and Free.
Evelyn
O. 8/22/2023
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